Help me!

There goes another weekend again and me feeling grumpier than ever.or rather pressurized and lost.i just met the new teacher and i must admit she is ICHIBAN(excellent in japanese)!but i feel like giving up and losing the music that was my life before.i dont mean that im great or anything,its just that music use to take away my probs but its different now.she seems to be expecting alot from me and i cant reach that standard at the moment.i feel like running away,i feel empty.on Sunday, Blue house lost so badly,i feel like screaming out my lungs.why is this happening?i thought of joining cheer next year though i have no idea what will come.Today,the trip to the nasional archives have been cancelled too.i was sooo looking forward to it and it let me down again for the third time this weekend.i feel so shitty at the moment.i hope that tomorrow would be a better day. FingersCrossed!X

its a brand new world!

my first post of the year.fasinating,haha!anyway,lifes bin changing so much!i juz feel like i am growing up so quickly.time,i guess,is the one making me jumpy.so not looking forward to this sat.gona face a new music teacher.maybe its a good thing but i still cant accept the fact and get over it.man,im such a failure at times.i hate being irresponsible too,makes me guilty and mad.at least there is still hope in this scary world,as i believe.actually i think that everyone should have that in mind.finished 'Confessions of a shopaholic'..hmm...interesting especially the last part when the heroine of the story appears.one thing i like about the book is that it is so REAL!i mean things like that do often happen in life,do they?my eyes are drooping now,cant wait to hug my bed,haha.will spill more next time.ChiaozZz...