Help me!

There goes another weekend again and me feeling grumpier than ever.or rather pressurized and lost.i just met the new teacher and i must admit she is ICHIBAN(excellent in japanese)!but i feel like giving up and losing the music that was my life before.i dont mean that im great or anything,its just that music use to take away my probs but its different now.she seems to be expecting alot from me and i cant reach that standard at the moment.i feel like running away,i feel empty.on Sunday, Blue house lost so badly,i feel like screaming out my lungs.why is this happening?i thought of joining cheer next year though i have no idea what will come.Today,the trip to the nasional archives have been cancelled too.i was sooo looking forward to it and it let me down again for the third time this weekend.i feel so shitty at the moment.i hope that tomorrow would be a better day. FingersCrossed!X